I LAY MY LOVE ON YOU;

{Wednesday, January 17, 2007}

blog post number #158
thank you vogue-- and my past few blogger blogs (:
but one must move on,

BLOG MOVED TO http://bluepolkadott.livejournal.com/

[[5:55 PM;

{Friday, January 12, 2007}
& %%

probably you didnt realise

okay luh, lifes so full of surprises hahah (:
headaches & knee pains & muscle aches arent fun though
please, stop it

no, i mean it, stop it.

so now im the one outa control. im the one at fault, what more do youre want. j aint the only person, and youre know it. now, stop it.

i think 3F is cool after all :D
and peiwen is DAMN CUTE please (:
(are you thinking what im thinking! 1,2,3! (: )
ABC damn funny lah haha (:

what if i choose not to believe

im cool (: and im a sophisticated girl (:

and all thats left may be the teeth marks

[[8:24 PM;

{Thursday, January 11, 2007}
love me, love me not

its incredible how you make me smile
like no one has done before

i tell you, IM DA BEST MAN
like ahaha lah, first im playing RUNESCAPE and now im downloading maple.
omgs please (:
dont mistaken, i still think killing mushrooms are damn lame (:
BUT, this stupid comp is so slow.
AND i want all my music and pictures back ):

look, i didnt want this to happen either yes. and the fact remains that i do not want to go alright. no matter what he says & no matter what youre say. i mean, im not even part of youre anymore, so why bother about me. and now it just seem like its my fault. you said i was free to choose my option, you said it was my decision. what now ? you regret saying that ? why does it seem so hard. it wasnt this way before, why does it have to end this way. you all seem so supportive of me, what happen now. am i really wrong to say no ? has it became your choice ?

math test was junk please. first question and i was stunned. woah demoralised aye
but i gotta admit, the english & chinese are far worse than the maths
i know i resolved to do better this year. but now im just laughing at myself lah

double; dont worry okay, everything will be fine (: keep the faith, lady. you once told me itll be fine for me, then itll be fine for you too :D

girlfriend; dont be sad anymore. you know that if you need someone to talk to, im here for you. your school might not be the best place to be, but you know out there, theyre friends and theyll be with ya! (: smile more okay!

everytime i thought i was near, it turned out that im wrong

[[6:30 PM;

{Tuesday, January 09, 2007}
goodbye to everything i knew.

it makes me wonder you know, why i cant stick to my resolution.
but heck (: im a happy girl.

and erica, can you relac, time will pass, people will change, and so will you! (:
smile okay, cause life is too idiotic and long to be upset with.
:D

oh yeah, so yeah, what was i going to say haha (:
people say i should stop the smileys. i shall attempt.
:D

oops.

so yes, im gonna fail tomm math paper.
i mean honestly, i cant memorise formulas. i mean, WHY CANT FORMULAS HAVE A BLOODY EXPLANATION.
damn.
nevermind, math is cool, just like me.

stupid image station is making me feel irritated.

~~its funny how you can somehow just fix it all aye~~

haha, my doct damn cute please. shes getting her niece to join synchro, then i abit dont know speediswim website. (yes, now i know) so yah, and we talked alot lah today (: shes got a veh cute niece.
i hope all these are getting somewhere. i mean this is no cheap business man (:

OH YES, I WANT ALL THE PHOTOS OKAY, SAM & PRIS!
and anyone else!

felicia!; remember youre not alone alright, you dont have to go through all this alone okay. i promise i'll be there for you. after all, im your new boyfriend! hang in there, girlfriend (: things will turn out just fine :D

double!; dont like that k, you know it hurts me to see you this way, and i know i cant do anything about it. but i'll try my best, and you know i will. ilu k

whats the point, i woke up wet only to realise ive been crying in my sleep again.

[[8:59 PM;

{Monday, January 08, 2007}

once it was you and me, then it was us.
and now you and me arent even in the same sentence

hahha, i thought aston villa deserved a draw. but, lifes like that isnt it, no matter how hard you try, things never turn out. OH WELLS.
lifes cool in a way (:

yeah youre so cool
i swear im the coolest. (:
im so cool, i freeze you (:
okay wth.

BASKETBALL WAS HAHAH (:
and i really put in effort please, given that i cant even stand straight. and bball seriously stretched me. :/ (so did kneeling down during mass. damn) PEIWEN DAMN CUTE HAHA (:

~~im sorry i cared. nevermind, i'll just disappear from your life.~~

[[4:24 PM;

{Sunday, January 07, 2007}
dont know dont care

im a cool shit yes.

okay tessa. im blogging.
and man, if my parents find out. im in deep shit. someone tell me how to delete the url from the address bar drop down menu.

anyway, a brand new year and of course therell be new year resolutions.
and ive only got one!
dont care about anything

in the 14 years of living, ive learnt(yes, and im still learning :D) that its entirely useless to care or even to care to know. cause everytime you do it, you get hurt.
you think something will turn out right, you think someone out there is thinking about you.
but the fact is youre a pathetic shit and no one thinks or even care about you.

okay, so maybe it applies to me only.

anyway. last year, ive done enough of forgiving, enough of bearing hopes.
i give up, i really do
i mean, each time i thought i have done the right thing, hoping someone will bother.
it turns out that nobody cares. nobody.
and why should i care.

sometimes i really dont want to care.
but each time, i cared.
and why do i bother,
i only end up in tears.

you said you care. you said you werent irritated. you lied. each time i thought i was wrong about you. each time i beared that little ray of hope that hey, you care for me and you love me really, like how i do. i guess im wrong everytime. how could i even hope that it could have turned out fine, we re just young i guess. i mean how could it turn out right, its wrong from the start. and everytime i cared about you, about us, i end up in tears. you dont even bother, you dont even care a twinny bit, you just think im a joke. and you lied. and still i believe in you i dont know why. you dont know how hurt i can get, just cause of you and you think im joking everytime. im a joke arent i, just a joke to you. im sorry i thought this will work out. im sorry i cared. lets just forget it. you dont bother anyway.

lifes a joke,
im a joke.
i promise i'll try not to care.

haha, im a great poet (:

i dont know why im like this. im like one of the most FORTUNATE people on earth.
i shouldnt be this way. really.
i should stop.
i wish i can.

so anyway, liverpool lost.
manu is tonight, wish them luck yea? :D

oh, and i desperately need cip.
ANYONE WANTS TO DO WITH ME.
hohoho, im really desperate.
cause i know i'll be horrible in the o's.
hmm :/

CYM is getting on my nerves.
i know my name rock, does he have to keep saying it!

AND NP ROCKS LAH HAHAH
okay, im sorry im weird.
but hey, think about it, it aint that bad lah huh (: theres interesting people
and theres like me the cool shit. (:
oh, but i dont know how i'll be like when the normal trng is back.
i dont like running especially when my knee like that and everything.
OMG LAH, im a big fat pig.
please people, believe me, im 63 kg

muscle ache everywhere, so please, when you see me, DO NOT TOUCH ME.
dont make me scream

swmg is hahaha, why do you ask me, i hardly care.
but for the sake of football, im staying on.
but man, im so slow, i think im gonna join the junior team soon :D

i love the word 'cool'
and im so cool :D
and homework are NOT cool.

oh, i like calls :D ahahah (:

yeah, you taught me not to care.
and i'll be obvious i dont care.

your pack of concerns
is like the game of cheat.

lame shit.

[[8:28 PM;

{Saturday, December 23, 2006}
maybe im not the girl theyre looking for.

hohoho, KARON IS BACK FROM PENANG :D

and karon is in pain about everyhing
like omg, MY HOMEWORK IS A NIGHTMARE
its already the 23! and i havent done ANYTHING
someone KILL ME.

oh by the way. penang has a cold pool which was so disgustingly dirty you only can see things 2 feet from you.
i mean its really stupid. AND THAT ACCOUNT WAS WITH GOOGLES OKAY.
can you imagine i was doing routine WITHOUT GOOGLES :D

anyway, so people laughed at me for rooting for liverpool when they were at their difficulty point.
BUT HOHOHO, LOOK AT THEM NOW! :D
im so in love with pools okay. im even starting to like bellamy and accept pennant :/
and i was watching the BARCA vs A.MADRID and i didnt know who to root for.
but the perfect result! :D
1-1 draw :D
and my torres so cute please. he grew back his hair! :D

maybe im NOT a girl,
i mean wasnt i supposed to be a guy
a guy that youre names shawn.
maybe i cant be the girl you want,
the girl so polite and gentle.
maybe youre should just leave me to be.

and whats up with ER please
she looks like a samurai :O
hohoho

FF/F is ready!
and come RC come! :D

and the memories so dear
i miss you already

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